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Saturday, January 29, 2011
Hey, Blogging again..
Tired
And feeling damn sian
Had a long long day today..
From chingay, to jap and to boardwalk performance..
Still pissed frm the boardwalk performance man..
The person infront of me DAMN IRRITATING la
Keep pushing me back, until i rlly gt no space to dance..
Super irritating..
And she keep getting steps wrong = disrupt my steps and poses
DAMN it
DAMN it
But asides from tht,
It was fun..
A cool performance dancing in the rain..
=)
At least, a stage for me to enjoy and bask in
Jap lesson today was damn fun..
Considering finally being able to see all my friends...
Kept switching lessons the prev wks cuz of chingay..
To be around ppl tht u like,
Makes all the difference,
No faking of smiles,
No needing to act nice,
Just being myself,
And it feels so comfortable..
=)
Chingay was fun but tiring..
I think my body's hitting it's max..
Too exhausted and tired man..
This wk other than tues, it has been crazy man..
Dance, dance, dance
Luckily there's a break nxt wk if nt i probably might faint..
But even if there's a fainting,
It would be one will a smile..
Enjoying myself to the max,
I doubt I'm going to experience this anytime soon..
After all this have ended,
I'm back to where I've started frm..
The shit pile of books, studying something i dont even think i like
Was during OB class this wk (Organisation behaviour and design)
In which I realised,
That whatever I am doing now had no link with passion..
For tht instance,
I seriously felt lyk quitting NBS..
Just going somewhere else like science or mass com..
I realised tht I'm only here because of situational factors,
Because I dont want to disappoint.
Because I lack the courage to insist my way through
Because I'm weak
I hope to gain strength,
To be stronger
To be able to accept failure
To be able to stand up to disappointment
To be able to recover from hurt
Wanting to study Mass Com,
To give it a shot whether it really is my dream..
Or study psychology
To learn more about myself,
To find my identity
Dancing
A way,
For me to gain more confidence,
For me to distract myself from school life
For me to enjoy myself in that one moment when I'm on stage
Went for CAC gathering the other day,
I was so glad I decided to go.
Even for just one moment,
Let me enjoy the feeling of having friends around,
Let me enjoy the feeling of being cared for,
Let me enjoy the feeling of being acknowledged somehow.
Let me bask in the new year atmosphere..
Going home with a friend was not as bad as expected.
I think things started becoming alittle awkward cause of the usual shit stirring LOL
But I'm so glad,
That our initial silence was not awkward but peaceful.
It was more of comfortableness coupled with tinges of nervoursness,
But I'm really happy tht I didnt feel awkward,
And I hope he did not too.
It's nice,
To know that I'm not the only one finding topics to talk about,
To warm up the atmosphere.
The result wasnt bad either.
An interesting memory that I certainly will keep
=)
I'm tired.
Both mentally and physically,
And I need my angel to lend me wings,
To let me fly to some unknown place to rest.
Have more to say but I'm damn tired
Nida slp le..
Kk..
Nite
Love ya~
You coloured my life @
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