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Wednesday, February 08, 2012
Hey blogging again, This time from hk.
Back in Hk after the new year,
And school has really started,
All the projects have started to pile in.
However,
The topic today is not about the daily lives though,
But rather what has gone past my mind this afternoon,
Went I went swimming in the Indoor Heated Pool~~~
When you experience differences,
When there's a Jacuzzi just by the side for usage,
When the bluish water is replaced by greenish ones,
When the constant hot air disappears, only to find cold harsh ones,
When the scale is much larger,
When the place is much cleaner,
Why do the thoughts appear to be similar?
It's forever about the same stuffs,
Life, Dreams, Boys and Forever Alones zzz
And this time,
Again, the forever fleeting feeling.
And you know that it's never going to change,
Until someone comes in to take his place
Super zzz max
And this time even worse,
One that will not even be possible given situation and time.
But still,
One that caught my attention right from the start.
However that time,
I chose to ignore as I wasnt in my friend-making mode,
And I didnt want to engage in unnecessary small talk.
In the end, we still ended up doing self intros with all that big group,
Yea, but there wasnt much thought.
And then,
At Gigi's birthday party,
All was there and him too, but again,
The focus wasnt on him but the other 2,
The hotpot with the other 2 was fantastic and I really had an awesome dinner,
Also, it was more of wanting to get to know the others,
Wanting to develop with them.
However, disappointment struck when you knew that both of them chose not to come over.
The hatred for smoke formed my invisible barrier,
The barrier that if they felt that I was in any little way important,
They would come and break it for me.
And in the end,
It was this knight in shining armor who came.
Even though I wasnt all that friendly to him,
He still came, talked to me and made me laugh.
There might be no intended meaning,
But to me, at least, it felt special, that I was not just some passerby
Because at first you think it's probably just being courteous,
But then when you see the reaction of others,
It makes it so much more clearer.
And then a midst the emo postings,
He read and commented,
And eventually got me joined him and friends for dinner,
But i got the message too late and didnt turn up.
Although things didnt go well,
Just the thought that he remembered and asked me out,
Was worth smiles.
And then no news,
There was no more common linings and stuff,
Despite the desire to meet again,
There was no avenue, no courage, no reason.
Not sure if it was fate but I then posted another,
Indicating that if there are no more news,
The lingering trace of him would vanish from my world.
And then, I found out he went back for CNYs'
On another occasion,
He then called a friend and I for dinner =)
Elated as I was, I'm quite sure it would be an enormous party and such,
A surprising event, as there were only 4 showing that it wasnt just a mass dinner
Though there are, again, probably no meaning intended.
This paranoid writer here, likes to think beyond, and etc etc
You dont think much of it at first,
And you dont think you are affected by it.
But when you realize that,
There's a tendency for you to check for fb messages
There's a tendency for you to look at ur phone hoping for another dinner,
There's a tendency for you to be sad when there is no more reply,
There's a tendency for you to alight at the next stop,
And wait for the next bus cause you know he's on that one.
You realize that shit,
It's starting all over again.
The fleeting feeling this time, has landed on him.
But I hope it disappears too,
And to some extent I hope he doesnt reply that msg,
Just like how the prev didnt reply his wadsapp
And drew the line.
So well,
Let's would this complicated friend of yours would
Think much lesser, And live a happier life
Kk Gtg le cya~
You coloured my life @
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